So what now?

I haven’t posted in a long time because I haven’t felt the need to.

But lately everything sucks. In April my boyfriend and I broke up for good because he cheated on me again with 3 girls.

I’m so lonely now. The guy that I liked after that said he liked me too, and he even kissed me.

Now he won’t give me the time of day.

I just want someone to talk to..

I wish I could post this kind of stuff on my regular account, but I can’t cause of my Dad. (Read my last post to know what I mean about him)

-K

Forgive me

I just had to get this out.

Just because I accidentally backed into someones car, my dad is saying that next I’ll be running over people.

I was 2 minutes late for work, and according to him I’m the most irresponsible person on the planet.

I was angry and upset because he said that to me, so I blocked him from seeing my feed on facebook.

Since I blocked him from that on facebook, according him I’m saying horrible nasty things about that that are gonna get him fired and make him lose his house and shit.

Since I’ve been a little upset because of all the things he’s yelled at me and made me feel guilty over. That means that I’m on drugs and I’m becoming an alcohlolic.

FUCK OFF DAD.

I’M NOT ALLOWED TO BE UPSET WITH YOU WHEN I’VE HAD A BAD DAY AND YOU’VE MADE IT WORSE BY YELLING?

I HAVE EVEN TASTED ALCOHOL IN MY LIFE. NOR HAVE I DONE DRUGS.

I WOULDN’T EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHERE TO GET THAT KIND OF SHIT ANYWAY.

So fuck off. If you’re gonna accuse me of all this shit, I really don’t want anything to do with you even though I have no choice.

FUCKING ASSHOLE

-K

So I’m glad.

Things have been going alot better lately. That’s why I haven’t been posting on here. I generally only post on here when I need to vent and when I’m down. My other stuff is on a different tumblr.

Everything is good besides the fact that I smashed my finger in the door last night. It hurts so bad.

-K

I am sick and tired of all of this.

All of this bullshit. Everyone! Seriously give me a break.

STAY OUT OF MY FUCKING LIFE.

I mean seriously. Why can;t you let me have my own friends? You have to fucking take away everything I have.

You have no life, the only friends you’ve made here are the ones that we;re my friends first.

-K

Something has to give.

This is getting ridiculous. I get called a bitch because I don’t want to chauffeur them around? I just drove freaking 3 hours to get here.

I still have homework.

Why do people think they can walk all over me?

I need some advice please.

-K

Ouch.

I got back to college and guess what? I lost a friend. Typical.

I went down to see them, and he was with ex-best friend. T(friend) gave me a dirty look and wouldn’t speak. Ex-best friend (J) and her roommate gave me dirty looks as well.

TC(other friend) spoke and gave me a hug as well as C(old friend). But looks like my ex-best friend just cant give it up.

What am I supposed to do? =’[

- K

Don’t misunderstand me.

I was thinking about this and so I feel the need to mention this.

I may sound very depressed and maybe even suicidal in some of these posts.

I swear I’m not. I just have my ups and downs sometimes. I really don’t know who to talk to about it sometimes. So I use this as my outlet.Yeah I would like someone on here to talk to me about some stuff, or if they need advice I can readily try to give it.

I can empathize. Trust me.

I have never never inflicted self harm, or been clinically diagnosed with depression.

I just have my problems like everyone else. Sometimes I feel depressed but who doesn’t?

-K

Sometimes I fake happy. Sometimes I really am happy.

So who’s to tell the difference but me?

Most of the time I’m content with keeping things to myself, other times I just want to let it out. I just want to scream and tell someone.

Should I tell someone?

-K

I just can’t keep hurting like this.

Someone help me. I’m begging.

-K

It wasn’t so bad until this.

I got to college, it was really scary. I cried when my family and boyfriend left.

Afterward though It wasn’t so bad. I made some new friends. We turned out being really close. They slept over in our dorm and we’re becoming good friends.

But now I’m scared. I went home for the weekend, and my ex-best friend has been hanging out with them. I’m so scared that she’s going to take everyone away again. I just cant handle that.

I have abandonment issues. I’m terrified I’m going to be alone again. Why can’t I ever get a break? Why did she have to follow me there?

I love you because you were my best friend since pre-school. I hate you for taking everyone and everything away from me.

Please just stop, stay out of my life. Let me have my own friends.

Find your own.

Don’t take everything away again. I can’t handle you anymore.

-K

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY